Somehow Im going to find the thingThe thing that'll erase the stingThe thing that's been bgging me ever sinceThe thing that kept me doing a lot of sinsThe taint of my heartShall be torn apartThe black stain shall be removedI not I shall disapproveBut I could use a handOr maybe a wandBut they wont even reprimandJust a single aid Just a little shade.My heart is wrapped with electric wireAnd been brought to the fireSometimes I want to stab itTo kill the darn halfwitt.Watch me soarI know nothing in this world is worth living forI know my heart doesnt deserve a lifeBut why wont you stab it with a knife?
ФФDOLLfAcEФФ
The Memoirs of the Nefarious Cradle (poem)
The world was movingI can fell somethingAs I closed my eyesI realized...This place...is for hearts that are chasteFor people who has no time to wasteWhere all hearts and souls belongWhere we hear lots of songsAnd to bear in mindWe have nothing to bindWe hve lots of friendsWho would commend And who have lots of advices to senBut not meI dont live as freeI cant be who I want to beI am vulnerableWhile everyone's invincibleI am prisoned in an asylumI have nothing to do but wait and face my doomI have been oppressedBut no one guessedIn fact no one caresThey had their own shareSO I hid myselfTrying to hide like an elfAnd so that no one would think I'm being sentimentalCause I am not being emotionalBut the pain...it's getting worser and worserMy life's insignificant to a roller coaster For I am always down on my kneesWhile everyone's pleasedTo see a pathetic childCan't you just be mild?I wanted to screamBut it's no use at allIt's not worth the fallI am burningI am freezingBut I have to Stood upTHe pain didn't stoppedIt prolongedSo I sang a songTrying to feel mirthWhich I never experienced since birthBut still I felt the sorrowThe pain that is coming tomorrowIt's not as easy as it seemsI need to scream"I want to die!!!"But I gave out a sighI had plenty of wordsI felt like a nerdBut they're worthlessAs if life was meaninglessI want to let the dark side outThat's why I want to shoutBut there's still a glass that seals the dark side insideI can't do this anymoreIt haunts me just like beforeSo I went to the place full of iceMy brother heard my criesIt was written in his eyesI asked for his helpHe said I was a whelpI looked for the warmth of his heartAnd asked him to do his partBut his heart was frozenThat's why he was chosenTO rule the iceSO I suffered great sacrificeAnd went home ashamed but unsurrisedTo recieve my condemned prizeThe next day I went to the cloudsI saw my crush laughing out loudI went to him...his the only person I trustBut he poured many dustsMy shoes became full of dusts and he prepared to thrustI saw needles from my heart, full of rustI fell down to the landNo one caught me only the sandA sharp stone hit my headAnd trust me, it bledThe next day I went to the seaTo give all my pleasI swam, holding my breath Thinking, "this must be the feeling of death";As I asked my mother for her aidShe suddenly d\started to fadeShe took my breathBut She knew I cried with depthShe took it until I diedNo one even criedInstead they all sighedFor who could've loved a girl who triedWho failed when she was still a child.As I closed my eyesI realizedThis lace is only for theeBut not for me...I drowned in the waterI fell a little bit furtherMy mom didnt even wonderedShe jut let me witherMy ody was n a dark icheI felt a little ickTime kept on runningWatching my dead body wasnt stunning After seconds of my death it looks like it never happenedEverybody did forgetBut I cant forget about the painful regretTo see my forgotten body Watching it I felt sorryThe past has been forgotten But I could never forget what happenedAnd the thing that they did to meI felt a little whoreNow I see...Nothings worth living for...
Seals, squids, planktons, seaturtles, whales, mollusks, seahorses, dolphins, fishes, shells, jellyfishes, narwhals, crabs, seaweeds and mantas are the orthodox sea creatures that we all know. But do know any sea serpents or other sea creatures which are very rare?I'm pretty sure you knows mermaids, don't you? But we all know they dont exist, right? But we can never sure. There are only 2 things possible: one, maybe we can't see them because they're not human brings so they must've possessed some kind of extraordinary powers that not even our naked or aided eyes could see. Second, maybe they dont really exist.I'm pretty sure you've heard of a long time ago monster that lives in the Loch Ness Ocean in Scottland, havent you? Reports have been said that many people have seen them and took pictures. It looked like a pleaseusaurus. Next, there's the kraken. It is a sea serpent which was known long time ago in England, i think. It was so slender and has two horns.Anyway, my point is, life can be an ocean. It has so many secret hidden . It is mysterious. We dont know if we are suppose to see it or not. Sometimes, the world accidentally ses it, sometimes the wanted to. That's why there are some parts of the ocean which we are not suppose to see. When I think about it, it gives me the creeps. Posted by
Have you ever felt what death is like? Well, do you want to know how it feels?Being dead is just a normal stage in life. It's just the stage where you live in another world, where your soul is free.People are just like lack candles with red bows. The black candle reppresents as their human bodies while the bow rpresent as their memories. Losing the bow means loing both life and memories. What I mean by life is the stage when one was still walking here in the earth.Some says thst after death, there'll be life again but you'l not be the same person as you used to be. That's what they call the 'Circle of the Life'. You probably have heard that from the 'Land Before Times' and 'Lion King'.The 'Circle of Life' is just like a food chain. First and foremost, you lived, then you died then you lived again and so on. For example, if you're name today is Mandy, you groew older and dies, next generation, you'll become another different person. You're not the old Mandy anymore, you'll become Mindy , a new form of person. But you'll never remember anything about Mandy. All you know is that you're Mindy. GOd knows who or what you'll become in the next life. He has your memories and then place another brain for you to complete. It's just like making a home video project. But that's just what they said. I'm not telling it's true, it can be or it can't be. Posted by
Facing Our Teenage Life Crisis
Teenage was not as easy and as fun as it looks. You'll have to wander around, meeting all sorts of people and looking for a place to belong. You'll have to feel all of the emotions ; being hurt, happy, bored and a lot of things whether you like it or not. Especially when you see your crush (come on, let's face it), instead of being happy because you saw him, you'd rather be lonely since he doesn't know that you admire at him. He's like 'FOR YOUR EYES ONLY' and that's all. Several parents also says that their kids becomes contumacious when they reach their teens. They dont really acquise the rules of their parents (like me) . But maybe because it's their stage to rule and to have freedom. Some teenagers even tells their parents "If only you'd let me go out all the time, I'd be popular."Most of the people loves being a teenager especially their high school life. True, it's outrageous but it can never be fun. One thing for me really rulez my world ; 'you don't hae to show your smelly laundry to the media.' You'll have to consider a "hush-hush sentiment" so that there'll be some other parts in your life which is still c;andestine. Anyway, in this kind of stage, you'll never believe in tooth fairies, leprechauns, sea serpents, witches, wizzads and santa paws (rawr) i-i mean santa claus. And each one is required with a reliable comrade (w/c you might not know, backstabs you).It could be a human, a bark of a tree or a notebook. It's up to you. But I prefer a notebook. First and foremost, humans are not reliable as you think. Some only. Second, it would be a little freaky if you'll talk to a bark. Third, you could just write down your secrets and read it until the day you die. Posted by
Giving Up The Last Breath
Life can be a roller coaster. Sometimes you're up, sometimes you're down. We embrace the outrageous moments and we ostracize the terrible ones. Helerig Ame, my sweet friend, a 13 year old girl, once was a very cheerful type of person. Everytime you have a problem, she's always ready with some effective advices and jokes to cheer you up. But then, a tragic event came, I saw her crying and asked her what her problem was. She denied to look at me.Then, she finally told me that she's been in a great despair ever since. After that stupid incident, IU never really saw her blithe face anymore. Nor her contagious chuckles. She has become a changed person. She left her old self. She already started saying swearwords which she never knew how to speak when wewere still kids. She has already given up her awe-spiring memories...when she was still the sweetest rose ever.
I used to have a big brother. He was good, intelligent, wise and thoughtful. Everytime he have a class to attend, he never leaves the house before I come with him. He's also a self-effacing person and never brags anything about himself. He was my brother and my bestfriend.Sometimes, at night, we shared stories, secrets and lots of stuffs we could share. Even if our mum gives us chocolates each, he would give me his chocolate. One day, he didn't waited for me to go to school, as usual. I felt somethings odd. I finally realized that he's gone. THe big brother I used to have is dead.I saw him in his oom but he yelled at me. He said some stupid things at me. It was the first time ever he told me that I'm a pesky animal. I ran outside, to our secret place. I cried there and went back to my room. I asked him where my brother was but he said he already killed him. But I didn't belived in him I knew it was the computer that ate him.
a computer ate him.,
I used to have a big brother. But
The Condemned Optimism
We've been trying to follow our dreams, studying hard and aiming as high as we could. But, what happens if you mistakenly told someone whom you think you can give him/her your trust but then, the next thing you knew, she let you down? Would you still pursue that dream or rue the day that you told that person? Here's my story...I'm a very zealous girl. Yeah...I admit it. But on the other hand, it's not that bad to dream, isn't it?I dreamed of becoming a ♪♥♥♪†ﮝ報報報ﮝ† and that's where I started my path through the wilderness... ♪SO, I let my mum know about my dream and I told her that I'm really hoping that I could fulfill that darn ambition cause I found it really fun to be one. At first, she just nodded and said "yeah, yeah, cool" But then, she looke at me and then said, "You can never be like that because you're such a pig" I mean UGH...come on!!! she's suppose to be a mother and I think mothers should buoy up their kid's souls inreaching their goals. In fact, they should give exact advices and darn quotes for life in order for their kids to understand what they meant. But, my mum's different. She was totally opposite. And then there's some of my lassmates who totally heard about this and then they frankly talked to me infront of everybody and told me "Listen, I don't think you could do that. Anyone could but not you."At first, that didn't affected me. But in the end, I started to become very paranoid about it. So, the thoughts of being a nobody popped out from my head. I could even feel the great pain in my chest, technically. But all I could do is shut up.I already told my bro about that but he let me down too. He said, "NO!NO! It's all your fault because you're blah...blahblah...blahblah...blahblah..."Now, I'm totally frustrated. But still, I still planted in my mind that I needed to stand up and do my thing even ifI stand up alone. I don't think they think of me as a human. I think they think of me as a monster, but not literally. They said I inconsiderate. But the question was, were they considerate at me? I don't think so.
tRusT mE.... yOu dOn't wAnt tO kNoW abOUt tHis
"AbOut MwaH"
I'm A gOtHic.... I'm sHoP-a-hOLiC... AniMe aDdiCt... aNd I'm a fReAk!!!
Somehow Im going to find the thingThe thing that'll erase the stingThe thing that's been bgging me ever sinceThe thing that kept me doing a lot of sinsThe taint of my heartShall be torn apartThe black stain shall be removedI not I shall disapproveBut I could use a handOr maybe a wandBut they wont even reprimandJust a single aid Just a little shade.My heart is wrapped with electric wireAnd been brought to the fireSometimes I want to stab itTo kill the darn halfwitt.Watch me soarI know nothing in this world is worth living forI know my heart doesnt deserve a lifeBut why wont you stab it with a knife?
ФФDOLLfAcEФФ
The Memoirs of the Nefarious Cradle (poem)
The world was movingI can fell somethingAs I closed my eyesI realized...This place...is for hearts that are chasteFor people who has no time to wasteWhere all hearts and souls belongWhere we hear lots of songsAnd to bear in mindWe have nothing to bindWe hve lots of friendsWho would commend And who have lots of advices to senBut not meI dont live as freeI cant be who I want to beI am vulnerableWhile everyone's invincibleI am prisoned in an asylumI have nothing to do but wait and face my doomI have been oppressedBut no one guessedIn fact no one caresThey had their own shareSO I hid myselfTrying to hide like an elfAnd so that no one would think I'm being sentimentalCause I am not being emotionalBut the pain...it's getting worser and worserMy life's insignificant to a roller coaster For I am always down on my kneesWhile everyone's pleasedTo see a pathetic childCan't you just be mild?I wanted to screamBut it's no use at allIt's not worth the fallI am burningI am freezingBut I have to Stood upTHe pain didn't stoppedIt prolongedSo I sang a songTrying to feel mirthWhich I never experienced since birthBut still I felt the sorrowThe pain that is coming tomorrowIt's not as easy as it seemsI need to scream"I want to die!!!"But I gave out a sighI had plenty of wordsI felt like a nerdBut they're worthlessAs if life was meaninglessI want to let the dark side outThat's why I want to shoutBut there's still a glass that seals the dark side insideI can't do this anymoreIt haunts me just like beforeSo I went to the place full of iceMy brother heard my criesIt was written in his eyesI asked for his helpHe said I was a whelpI looked for the warmth of his heartAnd asked him to do his partBut his heart was frozenThat's why he was chosenTO rule the iceSO I suffered great sacrificeAnd went home ashamed but unsurrisedTo recieve my condemned prizeThe next day I went to the cloudsI saw my crush laughing out loudI went to him...his the only person I trustBut he poured many dustsMy shoes became full of dusts and he prepared to thrustI saw needles from my heart, full of rustI fell down to the landNo one caught me only the sandA sharp stone hit my headAnd trust me, it bledThe next day I went to the seaTo give all my pleasI swam, holding my breath Thinking, "this must be the feeling of death";As I asked my mother for her aidShe suddenly d\started to fadeShe took my breathBut She knew I cried with depthShe took it until I diedNo one even criedInstead they all sighedFor who could've loved a girl who triedWho failed when she was still a child.As I closed my eyesI realizedThis lace is only for theeBut not for me...I drowned in the waterI fell a little bit furtherMy mom didnt even wonderedShe jut let me witherMy ody was n a dark icheI felt a little ickTime kept on runningWatching my dead body wasnt stunning After seconds of my death it looks like it never happenedEverybody did forgetBut I cant forget about the painful regretTo see my forgotten body Watching it I felt sorryThe past has been forgotten But I could never forget what happenedAnd the thing that they did to meI felt a little whoreNow I see...Nothings worth living for...
Seals, squids, planktons, seaturtles, whales, mollusks, seahorses, dolphins, fishes, shells, jellyfishes, narwhals, crabs, seaweeds and mantas are the orthodox sea creatures that we all know. But do know any sea serpents or other sea creatures which are very rare?I'm pretty sure you knows mermaids, don't you? But we all know they dont exist, right? But we can never sure. There are only 2 things possible: one, maybe we can't see them because they're not human brings so they must've possessed some kind of extraordinary powers that not even our naked or aided eyes could see. Second, maybe they dont really exist.I'm pretty sure you've heard of a long time ago monster that lives in the Loch Ness Ocean in Scottland, havent you? Reports have been said that many people have seen them and took pictures. It looked like a pleaseusaurus. Next, there's the kraken. It is a sea serpent which was known long time ago in England, i think. It was so slender and has two horns.Anyway, my point is, life can be an ocean. It has so many secret hidden . It is mysterious. We dont know if we are suppose to see it or not. Sometimes, the world accidentally ses it, sometimes the wanted to. That's why there are some parts of the ocean which we are not suppose to see. When I think about it, it gives me the creeps. Posted by
Have you ever felt what death is like? Well, do you want to know how it feels?Being dead is just a normal stage in life. It's just the stage where you live in another world, where your soul is free.People are just like lack candles with red bows. The black candle reppresents as their human bodies while the bow rpresent as their memories. Losing the bow means loing both life and memories. What I mean by life is the stage when one was still walking here in the earth.Some says thst after death, there'll be life again but you'l not be the same person as you used to be. That's what they call the 'Circle of the Life'. You probably have heard that from the 'Land Before Times' and 'Lion King'.The 'Circle of Life' is just like a food chain. First and foremost, you lived, then you died then you lived again and so on. For example, if you're name today is Mandy, you groew older and dies, next generation, you'll become another different person. You're not the old Mandy anymore, you'll become Mindy , a new form of person. But you'll never remem
ber anything about Mandy. All you know is that you're Mindy. GOd knows who or what you'll become in the next life. He has your memories and then place another brain for you to complete. It's just like making a home video project. But that's just what they said. I'm not telling it's true, it can be or it can't be. Posted by
Facing Our Teenage Life Crisis
Teenage was not as easy and as fun as it looks. You'll have to wander around, meeting all sorts of people and looking for a place to belong. You'll have to feel all of the emotions ; being hurt, happy, bored and a lot of things whether you like it or not. Especially when you see your crush (come on, let's face it), instead of being happy because you saw him, you'd rather be lonely since he doesn't know that you admire at him. He's like 'FOR YOUR EYES ONLY' and that's all. Several parents also says that their kids becomes contumacious when they reach their teens. They dont really acquise the rules of their parents (like me) . But maybe because it's their stage to rule and to have freedom. Some teenagers even tells their parents "If only you'd let me go out all the time, I'd be popular."Most of the people loves being a teenager especially their high school life. True, it's outrageous but it can never be fun. One thing for me really rulez my world ; 'you don't hae to show your smelly laundry to the media.' You'll have to consider a "hush-hush sentiment" so that there'll be some other parts in your life which is still c;andestine. Anyway, in this kind of stage, you'll never believe in tooth fairies, leprechauns, sea serpents, witches, wizzads and santa paws (rawr) i-i mean santa claus. And each one is required with a reliable comrade (w/c you might not know, backstabs you).It could be a human, a bark of a tree or a notebook. It's up to you. But I prefer a notebook. First and foremost, humans are not reliable as you think. Some only. Second, it would be a little freaky if you'll talk to a bark. Third, you could just write down your secrets and read it until the day you die. Posted by
Giving Up The Last Breath
Life can be a roller coaster. Sometimes you're up, sometimes you're down. We embrace the outrageous moments and we ostracize the terrible ones. Helerig Ame, my sweet friend, a 13 year old girl, once was a very cheerful type of person. Everytime you have a problem, she's always ready with some effective advices and jokes to cheer you up. But then, a tragic event came, I saw her crying and asked her what her problem was. She denied to look at me.Then, she finally told me that she's been in a great despair ever since. After that stupid incident, IU never really saw her blithe face anymore. Nor her contagious chuckles. She has become a changed person. She left her old self. She already started saying swearwords which she never knew how to speak when wewere still kids. She has already given up her awe-spiring memories...when she was still the sweetest rose ever.
I used to have a big brother. He was good, intelligent, wise and thoughtful. Everytime he have a class to attend, he never leaves the house before I come with him. He's also a self-effacing person and never brags anything about himself. He was my brother and my bestfriend.Sometimes, at night, we shared stories, secrets and lots of stuffs we could share. Even if our mum gives us chocolates each, he would give me his chocolate. One day, he didn't waited for me to go to school, as usual. I felt somethings odd. I finally realized that he's gone. THe big brother I used to have is dead.I saw him in his oom but he yelled at me. He said some stupid things at me. It was the first time ever he told me that I'm a pesky animal. I ran outside, to our secret place. I cried there and went back to my room. I asked him where my brother was but he said he already killed him. But I didn't belived in him I knew it was the computer that ate him.
a computer ate him.,
I used to have a big brother. But
The Condemned Optimism
We've been trying to follow our dreams, studying hard and aiming as high as we could. But, what happens if you mistakenly told someone whom you think you can give him/her your trust but then, the next thing you knew, she let you down? Would you still pursue that dream or rue the day that you told that person? Here's my story...I'm a very zealous girl. Yeah...I admit it. But on the other hand, it's not that bad to dream, isn't it?I dreamed of becoming a ♪♥♥♪†ﮝ報報報ﮝ† and that's where I started my path through the wilderness... ♪SO, I let my mum know about my dream and I told her that I'm really hoping that I could fulfill that darn ambition cause I found it really fun to be one. At first, she just nodded and said "yeah, yeah, cool" But then, she looke at me and then said, "You can never be like that because you're such a pig" I mean UGH...come on!!! she's suppose to be a mother and I think mothers should buoy up their kid's souls inreaching their goals. In fact, they should give exact advices and darn quotes for life in order for their kids to understand what they meant. But, my mum's different. She was totally opposite. And then there's some of my lassmates who totally heard about this and then they frankly talked to me infront of everybody and told me "Listen, I don't think you could do that. Anyone could but not you."At first, that didn't affected me. But in the end, I started to become very paranoid about it. So, the thoughts of being a nobody popped out from my head. I could even feel the great pain in my chest, technically. But all I could do is shut up.I already told my bro about that but he let me down too. He said, "NO!NO! It's all your fault because you're blah...blahblah...blahblah...blahblah..."Now, I'm totally frustrated. But still, I still planted in my mind that I needed to stand up and do my thing even ifI stand up alone. I don't think they think of me as a human. I think they think of me as a monster, but not literally. They said I inconsiderate. But the question was, were they considerate at me? I don't think so.
tRusT mE.... yOu dOn't wAnt tO kNoW abOUt tHis
"AbOut MwaH"
I'm A gOtHic.... I'm sHoP-a-hOLiC... AniMe aDdiCt... aNd I'm a fReAk!!!